Yes yes, today was teacher's day, or more commonly known as "meet your primary school friends day." Nah, I just randomed that. Lol, we watched Journey to the Center of the Earth instead of Meet Dave cause we were late, which I thought was pretty pathetic. It would have been more fitting for those kind of 3D rides. Whatever you call it la, cinemax, I dont know. Its just the one where the screen shows a ride of sorts and your seat moves along with it. Suddenly I cant recall the name for it.

I realised Ive been singing a lot at RCIY. Woohoo, lol can improve on my vocal skills. I guess I could sing cause my voice gets drowned out and I cant even hear myself, making me less self-conscious.

Since Ive been tagged to do a quiz, which is the first time its happened, I shall proceed with it. Im waiting for Star Wars: Clone Wars to buffer. ^^.

#1 The first person who tag/pass you is?
Jillyn.

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
Errr, friend? Met her at RCIY. Thats all.

#3 Your five impression of her?
Harr? Ehhh, innocent, shy, forgetful, cheerful, straightforward. Encompasses the good and the bad.

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Walao, difficult. Answer redirected to question 5.

#5 The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
Calling me coach and commenting "coach dont so despo la." Or something like that.

#6 If he/she become your lover, you will?
What else can I do? I cant possibly go "what the hell". Accept it la.

#7 If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be ?
This is becoming pointlessly retarded. Improve memory capacity? o.O.

#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Same as question 6. What else can I do? Accept it and dao her lor.

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be ?
How on earth would I know? Im pessimistic yes, but to the point where I imagine the world going against me or vice versa.

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
I dont know. She seems to love badminton a lot. Play with her?? Maybe make her run cause she stones while playing.

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is.
Isnt this similar to question 3? overall... bubbly. Lol. Random adjectives.

#12 How you think people around you will feel about you?
What abrupt change of topic focus. Honestly, "is he an introvert?" Lol.

#13 The characters you love of yourself are?
Characteristics you mean? Well hardworking, responsible, sensible, understanding, helpful, analytical blah.

#14 On the contrary , the characters you hate yourself are?
Oh this list can go on forever. Shy, pessimistic, emotional, weak, slightly introverted, unconfident, unexpressive...

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
Hmm got a lot. To make it easy, I would just say my dad. Really.

#16 For people that care and like you, say something to them ?
Well to the limited few, thanks a million and even though I dont show it, I appreciate it. Now the "limited few" part is pessismistic. Sheesh.

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.
This is the part where it get really irrelevant. Nevertheless, proceed.
1. Chiap
2. Samuel
3. Haozhi
4. Jin Fu
5. Michelle
6. Pauline
7. Anna
8. Anurak
9. Liwei
10. Ervin Seow
Lol, honestly I ran out at 8. Then liwei asked me to link him just a while ago and i scanned through my links and saw ervin, so I just inserted their names in. Is that pathetic? Dont know. Anyway, I dont think many people will do. Back to the quiz.

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
[Pauline] How I know? I dont go prying into other people's business. All I know is that she has a bf.

#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
[Liwei] A manly male. Lol.

#20 if no.7 & no.10 together, will it be a good thing?
[Anna and Ervin Seow] As usual, how are they going to be together if they dont even know each other? Outright dumb.

#21 What is no.2 studying about?
[Samuel] Now dont we all study the same thing? For one, he studies IT stuff which bewilders me.

#22 When was the last time you had chat with no.3?
[Haozhi] Depends on what you consider a chat. If its a conversation, I think never. If its just a few short exchanges, that would be yesterday.

#23 What kind of music band does no.8 like?
[Anurak] Err I think the typical ones? Fall Out Boy, MCR. Forgive me if Im wrong.

#24 Does no.1 have any sibilings?
[Chiap] Eh never ask him before. I think no.

#25 Will you woo no.3?
[Haozhi] Hes attached and well sought after. I dont do bandwagon though. #26 How about no.7? [Anna] Err never thought of it before and wont.

#27 Is no.4 single?
[Jin Fu] Hard to say. Even though I know his rumoured gf, they maintain a shroud of secrecy.

#28 What is the surname of no.5?
[Michelle] Teo. I almost thought it was Niu.

#29 What`s the hobby of no.10?
[Ervin Seow] This one ar... Cheering his house! Lol future morrison captain. Sorry haozhi.

#30 Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
[Michelle and Liwei] Dont know each other. End of Story.

#31 What is no.2 studying at?
[Samuel] RI la. Thats where I got to know him.

#32 Talk something casually about no.1.
[Chiap] He believes he changed his hairstyle. LOL.

#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
[Pauline] Nope. I dont steal man. Somemore shes my meimei.

#34 Where does no.9 live at?
[Liwei] Dont know. Didnt ask.

#35 What colour does no.4 like?
[Jin Fu] He likes colours? Wow. Lol no offense.

#36 Are no.5 and 1 best friend?
[Michelle and Chiap] For the last time they dont know each other.

#37 Does no.1 have any pets?
[Chiap] Not that I know of.

#38 Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
[Anna] I wouldnt dare to be the judge. Later she come after me.

#39 what is no.6 doing now?
[Pauline] Sleeping? Supposedly thats what everyones doing, except me.

Im done with it. Overall its bullshyt. Lol those that I tagged if want to do then do. I wont buzz you to do it. Star Wars!





Does anyone know how to eradicate procrastination????? Lol it seems embedded into the human soul. Undetachable. No matter how hard I try. Its getting me into a whole lot of trouble.

Lately Ive been feeling really tired. It might be cause Ive been sick since like God knows when or just a lack of sleep. Now thats like duh right. I felt like dozing off every minute throughout the day. Now I shall sleep in just a moment. Let me finish this short post.

Ive always had this question: Does a priest feel any stress? I remember when I was young and when I suffered a similar low point in my academic life, I told my mum, "I want to be a monk." Lol, now of course that time I wasnt at all spiritual. But they are the same la, priest and monk. Religious servants. Sorry cant think of a better term. But my question is, the priests just manages the affairs of the church. No income yes, but he receives alms or "red packets" as he himself terms it. Maybe Im not able to see it, but can there be any stress in this kind of vocation? It seems a rather carefree one. Since you are serving your religion wholeheartedly and your "income" comes freely (not saying that theres no work), isnt that good? I wonder. If so, I would go into theology immediately.

Right now Im still stuck in this life. Stuck, well, is a a temporary expression. It might improve.

My tagboard has come alive. Haha, yet it doesnt really matter. Not that tags are unwelcomed.





Grrr Im writing while waiting for my photos to be uploaded to the yahoo mail. I need to send them over to SHF but apparently the mail systems lagging. Badly.

I shall do the mundane recount of todays events. There was a lot of singing today in chinese. Samswee sang mummy which was quite ok but tong said that our support drowned out his voice. Lol, then the 3 man group came up with their tragic love story about ___ and ___ and then sang too. I cant remember the song title. It was quite funny rather than exciting actually. Lol.

We had dinner at J8 before the parody night. While waiting for the rest, Nigel talked about a lot of stuff. As always, I received expected comments, this time being that Im very judgemental. Very. Lol, I agree. Whether its a good thing or a bad thing I dont know, but right now I dont think its causing much trouble. I hope not. Dinner was horrible. In a nutshell, my pasta was covered in spicy spices because Sup forgot to close the lid and I poured a lot of it. Its like those lids with all the holes thingies and Sup wanted to spam so he open it without closing it. Lol, damm. In the end I had to settle for bloody Mac burgers. And I just spent half an hour shytting my ass of cause I had eaten half of the spicy pasta and subsequently had a tummyache.

Then of course theres parody night. My personal favourite was the Dark Lord one. It was cheap humour but none the less effective. The winning play was rather intellectually humoured and funny cause of the ermhum, purple acting. But they were really skilled la. Overall results were kind of expected, just a few surprises here and there. To be entirely honest, theres still a tinge of jealousy in me. But anyhow, I think Macbluffs group really put in tremendous effort and they deserved the second. From what I heard, they spent like almost every available time rehearsing. Im not trying to be the superior commentator or whatever. So even though I didnt go congratulating them after the event itself, I still congratulate them here. Congratulations.

Having said that, I need to thank Chiap, Nigel and Sup for sticking with me even though I was away. They could have jolly well joined another group and well, maybe, just maybe, done better. So thanks. Waiting for the last 5 pictures to upload now. Grrrrrrrrrrrr I want to sleepppppppppppppppppp.





Phew. I can finally truly say "I put in my best. Whatever the result, I will be satisfied." Partially cause I expect quite good marks too. Lol, but yeah I think I did well enough. Although its not full marks cause of linear law, the rest are rather well done and effort is beginning, beginning to pay off. Grr lately my whole life has been so work and academic centered. Hate it. I didnt like going on and on about studies and I still dont. Ironically, Im doing so now. Well, at least I have overcome all the shyts regarding tests environment and stuff. Trivial.

Sadly the mens team table tennis finals are at midnight so I cant catch it. I would if the next day were a normal school day but tomorrows the lab practical. Grrrr stupid stupid stupid. The semis between Germany and Japan were really exciting. It was extremely close and well balanced, but in the end Timor Bull pull Germany into the finals. Even europeans are catching on the sport now. Its amazing. The first single guy Dimitri Oucarov (confirm spell wrong) had a one-of-a-kind serve too. Too bad Singapore lost the womens team finals. But it was expected though. It was a total thrashing.

Its been quite some time since I absolved myself from more detrimental entertainment. Now Im referring to things like dota. Lol, I havent played games for a long time alreadi. As in seriously, I cant believe it myself either. Im getting so spiritual woohoo. Lol, occasionally dota screens still popup in my mind. My RE group talks about it without fail every week. Cant blame them though cause theres nothing to do. Still, dota hasnt really died down yet. I think I will play again when EOYs are over. Like everybody else, I cant wait till then.

Physics Lab Practical is up tomorrow as I said earlier and I need to study. Im half-hearted about studying considering my grade but still I must persevere. Now that sounds sooo cliche, doesnt it? Lol.





"I told you so."

"Effort doesnt pay."

"Every man for himself."

These words,
though simple,
though seemingly ordinary,
encapsulate everything.





Weirdly enough, if I wish really really really hard enough, that wish would come true. Im not referring to big wishes like being the dota champion (Ive quit in case you have forgotten) or getting a 4.0, but very minor wishes like whats going to happen tomorrow. Of course, it onli works sometimes, but Im beginning to see a trend. This time it was quite lame. Its about running into somebody. Very hard to say. But the point is, if I really have this sort of power thingy, that would be awesome, wouldnt it? Lol.

Lately, I have been rather 'retarded' and 'constantly high' kind of thing. I wont deny it, but please dont let my behaviour misrepresent me. I cant explain this erratic behaviour either. Possibly, just maybe, one of the reasons is that I dont talk and interact much, so when I do, I go overboard. Is that it? Lol, sounds totally nonsensical. Anyway, I will try to control myself from now on, lest it becomes damaging, both to myself and to others. Im not 'siao'. Lol.

Just finished studying for chem. If all goes well, I should be able to get a decent grade tomorrow. The mock test was managable.






Stupid bed. Essentially, my bed has no support at all. The bed frame is planks of wood spaced out equally on some hinge thingy. If you can picture it, its like damm unstable and stupid. Today for dont know what reason it just keeps giving way, as in the bed sinks down cause the wood planks drop down. Its hard to describe but the point is that my beds hopeless. Ironic too cause instead of giving rest and sleep, my bed is infuriating me and my family. My mum cant fix it. I will just try to sleep on the thing for tonight. Its fixed up but I dont know if it will give way again but I dont care. Im going to say this regardless of the consequences, ikea sucks. Bloody pathetic. Now I agree. Dont buy ikea goods. Junk. Rubbish. Crap.

Now Im calming down with songs from Beautiful Seed. I got it from jerome after 'five loaves and two fishes' was played at RCIY. Its nice but I onli managed to get it after some time. It was in the WINRAR format thingy and usually extracting this shyts are straightfoward. But maybe cause I was pissed or otherwise, today I messed it up and had to try a few times before finally extracting the proper content. Geeez, pathetic. So many people in RI have so many hidden abilitiess so to speak. Its intimidating. Samuels like some IT freak, Jeromes also some IT freak cum technology hacker, chiaps a video editor, haozhis a blogskin creator, anuraks a photoshop-ist, and many many more. Well, specifically its all technology related. I cant do anything of that sort. Im going to screw around with those bloody programmes during the december holidays. Definitely.

I missed the olympics opening ceremony yesterday. It was definitely less important than my relatives wake. Even though Im not close to her, I got to do pay respects like everyone else. Even though I dont know her well, I pray for her. According to my mum, my extended family, paternal and maternal, are very screwed up, so we dont interact much. I always felt that sucked since so many people get along with their cousins so well. Anyway, channel 5 showed the encore at like 6? Why show at that time? Even if I did wake up at 6, I had to go for parody. Cant they encore at some more appropriate time like the afternoon? Well I caught NDP. It was nice la, thats all. But eventually, how different can it be after twisting the programme here and there a bit every year on 9 August?

Im going to church tomorrow. Who cares about work.





The past two days have been gruelling and cruel. I was down with the common flu. Its supposed to be nothing at all really, but it was exacerbated by the many setbeacks these past two days. Greatly. My GPAs werent extraordinary but they werent too bad either, although I wished for better. Duh, like who doesnt. Essentially, the classes were spammed with 4.0s and I had no share of it. But thats not really the point cause the scores were predetermined long ago so that didnt really have much impact.

The PSL list was out on Monday. Well my application got rejected, along with many others. I really wanted to be a PSL. This was the first time I genuinely wanted to be something, small or big. Obviously, that was quite saddening, for the lack of a better word. Analysing my failure, there were two plausible reasons I could think of. One, I had some demerit points in the record. I wont deny it nor will I downplay the quantity of it, but it was all for being late. Even if being late were really really bad, I accumulated the points mostly in sec 1 and 2 and well, changed in 3. Just cause I got points doesnt mean Im worst off than others. Evidently, many people get away with misdeeds simply cause they are lucky. Two, the selection panel (I have a pretty good idea who it comprised) judged unfairly. I didnt say biased. But it seemed that most of the successful applicants were people who knew the selection panelists well and some were just sponges. Arrogance or not, I believe me, and many other unsuccessful applicants, are more eligible than some of the succesful applicants. Having said that, I would like to say this is my own self-deemed justice and judgement so none can fault me on this. I never said this were the truth.

Physics quiz killed me. Exam anxiety, nervous breakdown, whatever I cant be bothered. All I know is I did try my best in preparing for it. Though it was only the day before, it was the only time I had and I used it. Maths and phyiscs have really become a challenge. The maths teacher was funny at first, but at times he seemed quite disencouraging. Like he would shake his head and stuff. Dont know la. Then physics CCK is really something. He spent 15 to 20 mins preaching all his morals and rushed through ex 10 like some fuck. Time management? These two subject lessons are really headaches. I can never ever consolidate and reconcile anything during the lessons itself. Now chemistry has turned really fun. The teacher's great, the lessons's pace is good and the lesson is interesting. Thats whats a really good teacher is.

I was consolidating my thoughts and understanding after maths. I was the only one left in class. Clement Quay came and politely ushered me to house meeting and so I was off. Between staffroom 1 and 2, Kelvin Ng (or Yap, cant remember) saw me and asked my house. "Bayley" Then he stared at me and shouted "Hurry up and go!" or something. I dont have anything against him. He was just doing his job, but the way he did it was questionable. What if I had some valid reason to skip house meeting? Like I had to go off for something else or what? I didnt la of course. Would trying to understand concepts be valid? Not really. But thats again besides the point. He should have asked something like "Why are you here?" in the very least before going bonkers.

Sorry, Im just angsting. I dont know whats going to happen for tomorrows maths tests. I skipped rugby support cause Im theoretically sick. I got an excuse, but I feel like getting one or not doesnt matter anymore. Theres no point keeping up my track record, if there was any to begin with. Just today I actually didnt care that I was late. An act of defiance. Well, I got no pink slip for that matter so I dont know what became of my attendance I think im going to start ponning stuff. Lol.

Im tired, really tired. Tip: Dont come to RI. (Will I get sued for this?)





Lets see what happened so far. I quit dota on thursday (not spontaneously but accidentally), we executed our RE project yesterday (we comprises 2 active people + 2 sleeping partners LOL), and I fell sick today. I havent been sick for a very long time and this is an exceptionally wonderful time to get sick. Theres no tone of voice and everything here so its meant to be sarcastic. Tests are filling every corner of the week and I am resolved to do better (resolved may not be very appropriate, maybe just hoping). So i got to get well soon cause if Im not wrong, theres one tomorrow?

Theres so much work. I ponned sunday mass 3 weeks in a row. But compared to some of the others, Im better off. Why havent they come for such a long time? Friday classes are like expanding and shrinking, drastically. Lol, one day its full another day its half full. I will try to make it on sunday next week. Hopefully with the national day break, there will some breathing space, some cause the rest will be taken. You know..

Now its work time. I need to rush everything today cause yesterday was out the whole day. At least REs over and done with so its onli left the report which I have taken care of my part. If all goes well, RE periods will become free periods. Lol, I think I even need to pon music lessons today. One cause of the cold and two cause fo the work load. Boo.