Yesterday, i went for the first R.C.I.Y (Rites of Christian Initaiton) lesson. It's actually mainly for those who wish to convert to Christianity but my sis said the priest also welcomed those who werent going to church regularly. Thus, i signed up. They had provided dinner (catered buffet style) and we were told to come at 7.30. So i went la, had dinner, tried to mix around abit. the co-ordinaters were most from the youth group i tink, although the so called teacher-in-charge was the priest. Anyway, the first lesson was obviously more of an introduction to faith and icebreakers session, and we were broken up into groups. My group got one is onli speak chinese and so.. jialat la. A bit harder to communicate but still managed la. My group facilitator, and also the overall youth co-ordinator, was quite nice la, friendly, jovial wadeva. Quite pretty oso. Lol. I skipped the first 'praise and worship' session cause i had to babysit my sis, but it goes on every week so doesnt matter.

Im going for the op on 15 May. Its minor but still kinda scari. After that, i have to rest for about a week, so im gonna pon school. Lol. Later cannot play inter-class again. Damm..





1 whole wk of holidays, apart from some work and annual events, that's what we (my school) got. So far, I havent touched my hmwk, not to mention look at it. Actually, im supposed to be down in school today for inter-class soccer, but 'cause of my appointment with the doc tml i decided against it. Anyway, my presence wunt be that signifcant, since there are many natural talents in my class who just completely overshadow me. lol. wish them all the best even though its gonna be hard. surprisingly, a good no. of my classs doesnt play soccer in general, compared to my previous class. Nevertheless, we still stand a pretty gd chance 'cause there are other classes which are predominantly more towards the aesthetics side.

during these so called extendeed holiday, i started watching bleach. yea, i know its quite a while ago, but i hadnt had time last time so could onli watch now. i just cant be bothered with e-learning. anyway, bleach's nice. no wonder its so popular. Its has the common concept of ghosts and spirits, but the storyline's great. For the past few days, you can guess what i did. Lol, its realli addictive.

Tomorrow's my doc appointment. I hope everything turns out fine. And good luck to my class (its called the Raffles Soccer LEAGUE or something liddat, so there will be a string of matches). Lol.





Well, here goes my 3rd post. Yesterday, I just found out that there was a growth somewhere in my body after consulting a GP. The GP wasnt very sure with her diagnosis and had to refer me to some governemntal hospital. She said there may be a need for a minor surgery. Honestly, I was quite scared when I heard that. I hadnt go for a real surgery b4 other than the normal injections. Even though a surgery was only a possibility and it would be a minor one, I was still quite apprehensive of the prospect of going under the knife. It never occured to me that it might actually happen to me. The appointment with the specialist is on this coming wednesday. Until then, I might not be able to rest at peace.

Anyway, life still has to go on. Today was Good Friday and I went for mass with my family excluding my dad. He was slightly different religiously. I didnt realli want to go but in the end just tagged along. I'm not faithful anyway. I pon class.

Hope my problem isnt too serious and I dont need surgery. Please please.





Ok this is my 2nd post lol. Todae school was slack coz all the lessons were minor subjects. Our PE module was swimming but i pon coz i a bit sick. lol. After that, we had social studies, during which we watched "Mississippi Burning". Racist movie btw, between the whites and blacks in Mississippi of coz. Pity we didn't have enuff time to finish the entire movie. It was quite cool coz the FBI was trying to solve some murder case. For Philo, we had a new teacher. He was quite lenient, as in dun scold or shout wadeva. Recess then intensive English. Breakneck speed lol.

Tml's Community day, organised only by our school. lol. It's supposed to be in conjunction with the 185 anniversary, but i see no link. Anyway, the CIP will be done with the respective CCAs, and since table-tennis is gonna do beach cleanip at Changi, i naturally hav to pick up crap too. Fortunately, ours is short compared to the rest of the CCAs, partially coz after that THEY have a match. The team i mean, which doesn't include mi. I still can't get over that, quite a blow to be honest.

I tink after school resumed, i feel much better, probably coz its much more lively. I din go out at all during the hols, which made mi reflect a lot. lol quite stupid rite? I oso dunno y i felt that way. Anyway, hope tml's not too boring n good luck to the team (although it's almost a shoo-in).





Where do i begin? Hmm, i've been feeling rather down recently cause during the hols, it somehow dawned upon mi that i have not been communicating well with friends. It seemed onli ytd that i was chatting on msn with friends, bois and gals alike. Den suddenly, my contacts all just cut off from mi. This was all my own undoing.

The last Dec hols, my friends in my previous class introduced mi to Dota, a game popular yet one which i was weary of since i was afraid of getting addicted. Eventually, we still went lan-ing, and i got hooked (to the game). Thereafter, i stopped logging on to msn but instead started dota-ing 24/7 . Months passed, the holidaes were over, yet i continued with my addiction. That was an action i regret till today.

Now, I sincerely feel left out and empty. It's like everyone's shut off to mi and no one remembers mi. You might sae i'm getting emo-ish or angsty, but i realli feel a need to express my feelings. This is partially why i created this blog at this point of time, owing to my low emotional state.

I hope, and ernestly do, that all my previous affiliations would come back to mi. Not immediately, but gradually. Persoanlly, I'm not veh adept at expressing myself or communicating wif others, but i will try, from now on, to mix around more. To my ex-school schmates, if you are reading, if i have in anyway offended you, be it verbally or my attitude, i'm sorry. I din do it intentionally. I dunno why, but suddenly i feel that all of you are shunning mi. Maybe i'm being over-sensitive or over-reacting, but like i said, i'm just expressing my thoughts and feelings.

So on msn or anywhere, feel free to tok to mi. I dunno why, but it's veh hard for mi to take the initiative. I would be most glad if you were just to start the conversation. As i said, my communicaiton skills are not veh effective, so please bear wif mi if i bore you to some extent. I try.

eh, I sound damm despo rite? I dunno, but I just realli want to sae tis. Letting it out feels so much better.