Tomorrows our parody groups first meeting. I bet it will be like usual group meetings where the actual time spent on work takes up maybe a third of the entire meeting session. Lol, especially with Bhargav and the Lit freaks around, I wouldnt have to do as much. I guess I will just be the scribe like I was before. Its not a bad role actually since writing and recording isnt really that difficult.

Hmm something weird just happened just now at the void deck. I was reading the book one of the facilitators passed me supposedly about Christianity and self-esteem blah blah. Im onli up to page 16 so I still dont really know what it is exactly about. Anyway, when I got up, I saw this woman standing a distance away, either looking at me or something behind me (wonder what that could be). I didnt think much and just entered the lift. Before it completely closed, the woman came sprinting, and I say sprinting, towards the lift. I just opened the doors for her. She was panting and slightly nervous I think. I wonder why. She got off at the six floor and thats it. Does it sound weird? Well, it is. I told my mum about it and she hypothesised that the woman had lift phobia and needed company in the lift. Lol, I guess thats a possibility.

Now for todays RCIY session. There are a few things I can remember. As usual, although I sort of opened up a bit from the camp, its still quite hard to just talk informally. I just stuck with this damm hyper guy whos also a facilitator. The first thing, the facilitator passed me the book. She had said that it was quite hard to get cause the book had somehow became rare, but she got it from her friend anyway. Thanks! Second thing, nicole passed me the note. Chiap, dont start your nonsense again. Third thing, my facilitator commented on my jacket. Lol, I sound materialistic but thats not the point. It just feels good when your presence is acknowledged, even if it is for a jacket. Lol. Last thing, someone called me a stalker. Lol, I guess navigating the world, or at least the e-world, makes me a stalker huh? In this case it would refer to surfing blogs. Okok, I know you were joking. I am too. Lol.

It looks like I have been gradually doing more productive things over the past week. Instead of just dota-ing the whole damm day, I have begun to watch documentaries on National Geographic and Discovery Channel. Lol, Im making use of my dads money subscribing to the starhub cabletv. Normally, the onli channels being watched are Nickelodeon, Disney Channel and Cartoon Network. Im not the one watching just in case you were wondering. Its my little sister of course. Lol.

Well thats it. Tomorrows my first holiday project meeting. There will be many more to come, and Im sure of it. Well, as I said in another post, theres time.





Today was rather frutiful, or at the very least I didnt spend my time aimlessly. I had drawn up the schedule for today the day before and it consisted four parts: registration of IC, shopping at Takashimaya, post-op hospital checkup and dental appointment. To start off, my mum and I went to the Codak shop at the nearby marketplace to get my passport size shot taken. My mum suggested this cause she was afraid of the queue at the ICAs phototaking studio. We got scammed. When we got to the ICA, the lady staff rejected my photo cause she said it was too dark. Then my mum was cursing, not swearing, at the workers at Codak cause she had alreadi clarified with them if the photo would be accepted. Whats more, the cost at Codak was 7 bucks while that at the ICA was onli 5.35. The queue was not long either. Thats why we got scammed. Anyway, the entire process took roughly an hour, better than what I had expected, and we went had lunch at the ICA cafeteria.

The day before, I figured that I would be out for the most part of the day so I decided to go shopping at Takashimaya to catch some of the sweet deals during the GSS. This was one of the rare occasions that I would specially go shopping rather than shop conveniently after dinner. Vincent had told me two days before of some good bargains at Takashimaya and thats why I went there. If not, I wouldnt know where to start. Well, the things he mentioned werent what I expected but I picked up some other things there, as well as some clothes elsewhere. Since I dont shop often, the experience was really quite daunting. A cap could go for 74 bucks! Lol, thats just insane. I ended my spree at 3.30 and head for the hospital.

Nothing much happened here. Everything was fine according to the doctor but I had to come back for a final checkup 3 months later. Lol, so irritating. Saw Bong down there. No idea what the hell he was doing there. Dental was as usual, except that I had to wear even more rubberbands than before. Its like triple vampire. Lol, lame again. The dentist said that it was the final stage so I had to put more effort. Besides, its the June holidays so I have more time.

Hmm remember some time ago I said I wanted to brush up on my IT skills, especially dreamweaver and photoshop? I still want to, expect I cant find the determination to. I need some tutor or mentor. Any professional here willing to lend a helping hand? Just dont price your rates too high. Lol. HeLp!









Today I had my physics DMP module on rocket physics. I almost forgot about it until my mum reminded me yesterday. Lol, so the first day of the holidays was spent in school yet again learning about rocket physics and aerodynamics. On the whole, it was quite fun since most of the activities were more of hands on rather than theoretical. We had to spilt ourselves into groups of threes and my other two members were people whom I have never spoken to before. Well, I see them around the school campus but just didnt talk to them. I got pang seh-ed by sup cause he had to go for scout camp. Sad. Anyway, the first half of the module was spent constructing a rocket. We just did the launching of the rockets for almost the whole first half, followed by a little bit of simple theory knowledge. In case you didnt know, it uses water propulsion (water + pressure) to launch, so a couple of people, including me, got pretty wet. Lol.

I had lunch with Leonard at cafe cartel. Honestly, I was quite surprised he suggested there. Most often, people would just eat at Macs or KFC or Long John or whatever. Cafe cartel is like so posh. Furthermore, my coach works there. Lol, we had the set lunches cause it wasnt time for student value meal. I had to rush my food though cause we were running late.

After lunch, we modified our rocket. Lol, this one has a plastic "parachute" stuck inside it in case you didnt notice. The top parts supposed to "detach" and the "parachute"s supposed to open up. We spent the entire second half just doing that. Slack right? The funny part was out of the four tries our group made, three of them saw our rockets diving kamikaze style towards the ground without detaching. During the final "flight", our top detached but our parachute onli opened up 2m before it hit the ground. Lol, like a in-the-nick-of-time save.

Thats about it for physics DMP. Another short reflection of mine. After reading chiaps post, I got pretty inspired. But Im not aiming to be ACCAL. Its just the grit and everything. For me, I will try to rebuild past lost relationships while trying to build new ones. Irrelevant right? I somehow saw a link to it lol..

Hmm was watching the arena just now. It was an interesting debate but RI won as always. I felt so suanned and useless. Why? Cause a debator from RI bearing the same name as me was named best speaker of that round as well as overall best speaker. Not only that, he was like so cool and calm on National TV, or to quote one of the judges - "your measured style is a killer". I see him around in school and he seems quite nice too, although they will always be people who feel otherwise. Lol, I am like shyt compared to him. BOOHOO.

Thats about it. Chiap said that RI won HCI by 1 POINT in the semis. Lol, I didnt catch that. It must have been intense. Obviously. Im thinking about changing skin since the font is really small and the colour is somewhat illegible. Well, theres time.





The holidays are officially here. Yeah, and boo. Somehow, schools sometimes seems a better place than home. I think people are gradually starting to realise that. Other than the absorption of knowledge that we all loathe, the atmospheres really quite lively and welcoming. It makes me feel at home in the very least. Not at home at home, but comfortable. Lol, so lame. Previously, I was contented with my comp and PS2, like some game freak or geek. Now I realise theres more to that. It sounds so cliche, but I think its true. No training till the last week of holidays and that means less time with my assholic seniors and irritating juniors. Lol. I have kind of drawn up a simple plan (I just realised, SIMPLE PLAN) for my abundant free time. Newspapers, discovery channel, national geographic, fictional books, illegal movies, dota, and not forgetting homework make up most of it. As always, there are still lots of gaps to be filled, and I do need help with that. Lol, I shant go on.

Hmm Jeson just sent me an email regarding the Physics Performance Task. He finished it! Lol, its one day into the holidays and he already finished it! And whats his reason? He was bored. I cant comprehend him. Not entirely, that is. I suppose he takes joy in learning, like we are all supposed to but cant find the determination to. Well, that means one less task for me, and for ben chiam too. Lol, yeah.

Ermm I dont know what to say. Weekends been boring for me. Like I said, I just didnt have time to think and reflect in the past. Let me just briefly share my usual weekend schedule previously. On friday night, after training ends around 5.30 or so, I would go home, have dinner, then go for my personal coaching at 7pm. Yeah, I know, I haD personal training but I still suck. Booo, I feel so useless. Anyway, I would go home, tired, game a bit, then sleep at about 12. Saturday morning will be as usual I will be somewhere where I wont say, afternoons free and at night I would go for taekwando. Afterwhich I will just play basketball with some random people since its at the b-ball court, reach home at 10 and similarly sleep at 12. Sunday. 11.30 go to church (at that time I still blindly went), lunch and have music lessons from 2-4. Then Im pretty much free apart from the family dinner tradition. It may not really seem tight in words, but it really is. Although there are like breaks in between, I cant really do much with them. Now, I have switched the personal training to group training to saturday afternoons, cancelled my saturday morning appointments, left the taekwando class, ponned church since the start of the year (or rather go for RCIY on friday nights), and continued my music lessons. But I have been skipping group training for a while due to various reasons. Effectively, now I just have RCIY on friday nights and music lessons on Sunday. See how my monotonous weekends have evolved into relaxed space and allowed me to reflect a lot on my life. The reflection part can be seen throughout all philosophical, or rather emo, posts since I started this blog.

Yeah, I hope hope my holidays will not revolve around my simplistic plan. Really. REally. REAlly. REALly. REALLy. REALLY.





Finally my lifes looking up. Today I finally got back a satisfactory test result after all the maths, chemistry and physics disappointments in which I havent been performing as well as I expected to. I wont say anything more for fear of Chiaps relentless blabbering. Lol, joking. I have begun to learn more about my faith, I have made new friends in school and at camp, my grades are gradually improving and I experienced a rather pleasant birthday. Since secondary 1, I have noticed that my life, at least academic life, always starts with me all high and mighty, then I drop to a state of depression and angstness, and followed by a gradual rise till the EOYS. This year my drop and rise has come a little earlier than usual but I hope it will continue till the end of the year as it should. I hope I will be like Lai Chee Keen, who was apparently damm emo about everything for the first half of the year and started to brighten up later on. Maybe I need to cherish things more. Yeah, I think thats it.

Hmm today received a belated birthday card from Mr Law, CLE teacher, cause I wasnt in school the week before. Although I dont know him very well, I believe hes quite a nice teacher, especially after what hes done today. I was quite surprised actually. To be honest, I thought he was quite biased. Well, I guess he lives up to his name of being one of the best teachers in RI.

There are many hard decisions and dilemmas in life. A lot of ideals often come into conflict with each other, be it friendship vs personal gains or personal interest vs obligations. I guess theres really no easy way out in these kinds of situations. It requires a lot of consideration and weighing to really make the right decision, or even sometimes there is no definite answer. Today my group was faced with a slightly minor decision of sorts. I dont know whats with me and this preachy paragraph, but just ignore it if it sounds like Im bragging.

Yeah, the long-awaited June holidays are finally approaching. Everyones talking about this camp that camp and other obligations, mainly CCA-related. I feel so left out. My CCA doesnt have training till the last week of the holidays, apparently cause the coach is somewhere back in his hometown, and we still have yet to organise a camp. Come to think of it, there hasnt been a single camp for my CCA since I joined. Lol, pitiful. As for the June holidays itself, I think Im gonna be just idling at home. I dont have a plan or anything and I really dont know what to do. Anyone want to go LAN or watch movie or do whatever stuff? Im really very free (apart from the homework obligations). Im fine with anything. Sorry, my despo urge again.

Well, thats it. You can see the amount of free time that I have from the length and frequency of my posts. They are really getting longer and more frequent. Is that good or bad? I think it works both ways. Yeah, thats it.





I think i screwed todays physics lab practical up. I had a slight headache, my correction tape went bust, and I used the wrong units for the table. Everything went haywire. Amazingly, my answer tallied with the majority. I dont know for sure how I will do, but I dont really care. Im like in still in the holiday mood after my camp, or rather already in the holiday mood since the holidays have yet to begin.

Yesterday I was really tired cause I only slept 4 hours during the camp. Well, its normal to forego sleep in certain cases. When I came home, I was still alright, so I went to play (nothing else I could think of doing other than work). I was thinking of doing work and writing at night but once I confronted the work from my two days absence in school, I just switched off. After staring into space for two hours, I knocked off into bed. Today the whole day I couldnt pay attention at all. Holiday mood hur.

Ok, lets recount. We left the church by bus at 8.30 and departed for CSC. Upon arrival, we were shown our domitories. They were not bad, considering the air-conditioning and size and all. I heard the girls dorms were much smaller, like 3-4 beds to a room, whereas we were all in the same room. Well, the boys are greatly outnumbered like twice or thrice, so maybe thats why.

First activity of the day was a talk and group discussions, the normal stuff. I dont want to be like spamming content down here. Theres no point anyway. After that, we had lunch, which comprised pasta and potato salad. All the meals were quite delicious, and my group facilitator always made it a point that we ate together as a group.

After lunch, the rest of the people changed up and played their outdoor activities. I played safe and didnt play in case of tearing open the wound. The first activity was captains ball, except that they replaced the ball with papaya. LOL, so papaya seeds occasionally rained down on them. The other activity was simply put, splashing people with small buckets of water. Lol, I have no idea what that was about. While the rest were playin their games, Adel came and gave me some really good advice. She had a sudden rash flare and had to see the doc. Then everyone went to wash up. I did too.

At roughly 5.00, we all got ready for mass. It was held at the Church of the Nativity of the Virgin Mary, which was just beside the centre. I guess it was a new experience for some, but I had already been to a mass quite a few times. Dinner was great as I said. We had fried rice and bee hoon which were provided by the guest speakers, who were also the trainers of our facilitators. They gave the second talk later in the night, and it was followed by some group prayer thing. I witnessed something quite incredible. One of the facilitators just fell to the ground after praying. Like what I said last time, hearing is one thing, seeing is another. That was quite shocking for me. That too, made me doubt how sure I was of myself. As the late night movie was being screened, I got a bit crazy. Lol, nothing happened though. Not everyone wanted to sleep, so Dominic the Joker just shared with us his stories, as well as his knowledge. We had many good laughs and turned in at 2.30.

I woke up at 6.40am to an aching stomach and went to pass it out, of course. So theres my four hours of sleep. Then the rest of the earlybirds sat around and just talked. I remained quite silent throughout. My usual nature. We had breakfast earlier than the preset time. No harm done. The facilitators managed the third round of talks and group discussions, conveniently acting out a skit which was quite funny. We had an hour before lunch to roam around but my group facilitator, temporary one since my group joined another and he sort of became the overall leader, suggested that we sat together again. I had quite a good talk with him as I had with Adel. I learned a lot from both of them, since they were among the oldest there, being in their low 20s.

Finally, to end off, there was the testimony session which lasted about an hour or so. Almost everyone shared their experience at the camp and I did too. Some were short maybe cause they didnt know what to say, while others were quite honest and meaningful. There was the hugging thing too, in which people just came up to the person who just shared to give him or her an encouraging hug. I was quite contented. To round up, everyone reveal their secret penpal to whom they would write encouraging or just friendly notes. Time was up and set off for church.

I think this camp has really been an experience for me, like I said in my testimony. I made a lot of new friends and also learned a lot of not exactly my faith but how the others held their faiths. Shant write too much on this or it might seem too long-winded.

If there were another camp, I would definitely go for it. I know some people attend one like often so regularly, but my first church camp was great.

Thanks to those who wished me on my birthday, and Vincent for the teeny-weenie yet wonderful present!





Hmm first up, lets take a look at this:
























LOL, aint that wonderful. I got a certificate! I almost wanted to laugh after seeing this. After all, who gets a certificate for going for an operation? Well, I was admitted under the childrens section, so i guess they were just following standard procedure.

Not much. My mums sulking on the eve of my birthday. Lol, nothing I can do really. The family tradition of celebrating with cakes has dwindled after I voiced out my disapproval of it. Lol, but without it birthdays seem rather empty.

Today chiap came and told me about the literature parody thingy. Thanks chiap and nigel! Really. He said they rejected an invitation to join the really imba group. Lol, Im sorry to drag you down. But then, he also said he did ask why they couldnt kick dithya out and let 3 of us in. I thought somebody said that we couldnt connect with him? Lol, just cause I suck and hes imba then he kerna chosen. But then again, thats the way the universe unfolds, doesnt it?

Tomorrow and the day after I will be the spirtitual centre. Lol, Ive never been there before. From the way the facilitators describe it, it sounds really posh and comfy. Still looking forward to it. But, theres still a pile of what we call crap waiting to be done. Damm!





My first time vividly remembering the interior of a hospital, my first time going under the knife and my first time experiencing induced sleep. That was today.

I woke up very early in the morning, even earlier than the usual time i get up to go to school. The day before, the hospital had called to give me my operation timing, which was 7.45am. My first thought was -- why so early? Lol, I had wished to sleep a bit later but it didnt seem possible anymore. As I suppose with all other operations, theres a certain fasting period the patient must undergo before the actual operation and mine started at midnight. I couldnt even drink a sip of water after waking up la and usually when you wake up your throat feels dry and all right? I wonder how the Malays survive their fasting period but im not sure it they are allowed to drink water. If not, it must be really tough.

My dad drove us there and we reached the place at about 7.30. Then we had to go through all the standard procedures, like registration and consultation. After that, I changed up into the patient suit thingy and waited for the surgeon to arrive. We were briefed on the risks of complications and kinds of stuff while waiting. My dad went rattling on about the rationale for this, which was to simply protect themselves from being sued or taken to court, and how in the past patients were not informed about the details of their operation. Finally, after all the protocols and waiting, the surgeon arrived at roughly 8.45. It was my first time, so naturally I was feeling tense.

The operating theatre was similar to the ones you see on tv in the commonplace drama series. It was big with a lone bed in the center and lights and equipment hanging above you like some interrogation cell. After I had settled down, the anaesthetist gave the usual jab to put me to sleep. It was not really that pain since the nurse had applied some cream before hand to soften the injected area around the hand. What I found really cool was the effectiveness of the anaesthetic. I mean its very common that you see or hear about anaesthetic and its powerful effects, but its an entirely different thing experiencing it yourself. After the jab, one of the male nurses looked at me and said, "You should be sleeping in about 30 seconds." I didnt know what to expect so I shut my eyes, and that was the last thing I remembered.

I woke up with the pain evidently from the incision made during the operation. It was about 2cm long and somewhere along the waist. The pain could be considered excruciating, but the nurses gave me some more anaesthetic mixed with orange juice to numb it. I went back to sleep again. After resting for about 2 hours, my dad came to my bedside and started giving me life lessons as he always did. Lol, I was half awake but wasnt in the right mind frame to listen. 3 hours passed and it was time to head home. I tried walking with the support of one of the nurses, but my right leg at that time had no feeling due to the numbing effect and gave way. Well, that was the only time it did and now its pretty much back to normal. My dad also bought me something, a box containing separate cards, each with an inspirational quote imprinted onto it. I found it quite nice but havent read them yet.

The morning was rather packed as you can see from above. I spent the afternoon mostly playing or watching shows since I had already slept for a substantial amount of time. As for homework, I didnt have the mood either, not that I did have the mood normally. Yeah, thats about it. One more thing, for some reason or another, I was admitted to the children's section in the hospital rather than the adults section. Lol, so the waiting area was like littered with toys and more toys and the patients there were moslty under 12. I really felt out of place. Lol.

Im skipping school tomorrow like I did today. It wont be very convenient to move around anyway. Looking forward to Sunday. There are two reasons but I guess I have already said enough previously. Now its time to rest again.

*Thanks to the handful of people who showed me their care and concern. Really appreciate it.*





Yesterday me and the other cca ponners played b-ball with Clement Zheng and the other relief teachers. It was clements idea and we were practically white elephants. Well, he got owned by some other taller teacher and an ex-b-baller. LOL.

Today there was a last minute Macbeth PBQ. It wasnt exactly last minute but we were onli told the day before. Anyway, our Lit teachers down with severe food poisoning, according to him, so obviously he wont be around in school. But that means more remedials. Lol, so he should probably get well soon to save both us and he himself the trouble. Backtracking one lesson, Chinese is getting rather interesting now with the recent "class debates". Essentially, the class is spilt into two factions with opposing views on a topic and a debate is held. However, since its in Chinese and its rather informal, its more for entertainment value rather than for intellectual development, although it does provide some insightful thoughts.

Assembly. DHM went rattling on about the "milk of human kindness". It was from Lady Macbeths words and I guess he mugged Macbeth once so he could remember the quotes. Either that or he simply prepared. Anyway, I amazingly listened. Lol, mostly for the song part. It was from the 1980s if I remember correclty but I found it quite meaningful. Nice. After that, we had to sing the Prometheum Day song, which I safely presume no one took part in. Lol.

Hmm what else do I have to say? I think the class on the whole is not bad, as in the environment, spirit and all. Of course, there are a varied mix of personalities, like the extreme Shang Hseun case, or maybe the stony Cui Cheng, or the horny bunch of sick freaks. I might be one. Lol, well thats how you integrate.

I have decided to go for the camp. After some contemplation, Im going to cancel the second op so unless its really bad, I should be able to attend the camp. The first day of the camp is incidentally my birthday. Lol, no one will know though but theres no need for them to. And the day befores class LAN! At least I think thats it. One of my very few outings which I hope not to miss but Iill be still quite fresh from the op so maybe cant go. Awww.





This weeks been rather confusing and provocative. After being confronted with the dilemma mentioned earlier, a lot of my activities have been disrupted. Im still contemplating and whenever I try to do something, it just comes smack right back into my face (or mind). Pretty weird, its just a small camp. But somehow, I feel the urge to go for it... Besides, skipping school during the last weeks not a good idea cause it will just snowball into the holidays, which is not at all desirable. So im going to see if something can be done, like I can cancel the second op.

Now another something to think about. You always hear about psychologists saying that one has to be bold and daring in order to increase his or her social network. But, even if one adopts that attitude, will it work? The problem that I personally have come across is that people already hang out in their small packs of friends or social groups. Thus, even with the right attitude, wouldnt it be difficult to "intrude" into this tightly knit social group, no matter how small it may be? To a certain extent, you might even be "intimidated" by such a situation and be unable to blend in. This, Im just saying, is like an invasion or intrusion into a unknown territory and that psychological barrier will always exist. At least thats how its been for me so far.

I realise that the past few posts have been hovering around this topic. I think I should stop. Its getting overboard. Anyway, its the end of the week and usually something new will come up. O, one more thing, I realised that I would be spending my birthday with an open wound! LOL, as lame as usual.


I was just thinking of what my pretty facilitator said yesterday. She shared with us her failed relationship and how she managed to pull through. I thought it was quite honest and sincere, since normally people wouldnt share this kind of things to any random person. More importantly, she described life as consisting of many doors, adapted from the saying "when one door closes, another opens". I suppose its quite a nice way to put it, like opening new doors and gaining new experiences. Although it sounds quite cliche, I found it somehow.. thought-provoking. Right now, I dont see many doors and havent opened many either, since up to now its been humdrum and mundane. Then she added by saying "I dont know if that door will open again, although you know, there are some other doors, slightly ajar, dont want to open.." Lol.

A social life. Ive been thinking about it. I regret some of my past actions. Like how I didnt want to go out with the "naughtier" bunch of my previous class. I had held prejudice against the DSA group, that I shouldnt get involved with them. Although they are seemingly lazy and annoying, some of them are really quite nice and socialable. They may have their flaws, but who doesnt? This seems to be getting out of point. Anyway, I wonder when does one really start having a social life. Primary school? Secondary? JC? Maybe adulthood? Im still trying to find mine. How to, that I dont know.

The flower,
a symbol of beauty and elegance.
Under the care of the garderner,
amongst her faithful companions,
she grows,
she blossoms.
Amid the relentless rain,
she struggles to move on.
But finally, she withers,
returning to the soil she once was,
she becomes forgotten.





Im writing about yesterday since now its early in the morning and yesterday was quite eventful. School was as usual, except for an act of cruelty committed by one of my friends. It was school dismissal when a lizard came crawling out of nowhere. The two guys sitting beside me, one of them the "murderer", had already left their places and the lizard was crawling towards my bag. I started shouting like a girl. Lol, it was just for fun. Then out of nowhere, the "murderer", Edene came and with a display of manliness, squashed the lizard with his shoe. YUCK! Lol, whats worse was that after that, he dragged it about the length of one table and there was a trail of juice or blood around my table. Lol, the tail detached and started wiggling. So cool! But all in all, it was quite gruesome. LOL. You can visit Samswees blog for the picture.

Lit class was stupid. Before Chan came, I got raped by the self-proclaimed dota pro and some others. But luckily, I had my operation less than a week later and warned them against doing anything violent. Lol, in th end my shoes and socks were stripped off but I managed to get them back. Well, it has to come back, hasnt it?

RCIY was better today. I managed to converse with some of the people there even though I couldnt initiate anything. After the entire session, the facilitators raised the issue about the spirit camp. Now Im in quite a fix. My op consists of two ops, both minor, but one of them requires a longer resting time than the other. The camp, which I want to go for, falls three days after the op. So if I only go for the latter op, I will be able to make it but if I go for both, I wouldnt. Damm its vexing. I cant decide. Anyway, one of my pretty facilitators and a number of people in my group arent going, so thats one thing to consider.

And yes, I pawned mr self-proclaimed again. HAHAHA, with the same hero ( dont say its easy to use cause it still requires skill). LOL, he wants to play again now ( to get pooned again). HAHAHAHAHA. Im so lame. Bye.





Hmm. Today there were literature and history tests. Both were almost back-to-back, with just one English period separating them. I tink both were pretty managble, but Im just afraid that I might have written out of point for history. Nevertheless, its all over and the tests for this term have moslty come to a closure. Thats a relief. Whats more, its just 1 week away from my op. However, when my malay teacher came to know of it today, she asked that I take the scheduled test in wk 10 earlier next tuesday. Lol, so thats one thing left before it really ends.

Malay lesson today was quite a joke. We sat down for almost half an hour waiting for our teacher to try to fix the projector in vain. Then Cikgu Nani started extorting overdue homework. Lol, lesson officially started at 3.30 and the break was at 3.45. After the break, I got bored and started pasting random stickers on the back of Nigels shirt. Lol, its childish but I was quite skilful. Lol, he didnt notice anything until it became too obvious cause the others were laughing at him.

Nothing much happened today. I dont know what to write. Next week I will be ponning school for close to a week. Lol, maybe even longer. But anyway, the June holidays are right after that so I hope to be able to return to school at least on the last day to collect the expectant avalanche-like work. Thats it.





A bad day, today was. Firstly, we got back the physics CCT. Initially, the teacher commended me for "[overcoming]" the odds and bouncing back from my bare pass in PR1. I felt happy and surprised cause I honeslty didnt put much effort. But after I got it back, I immediately sunk. It was 2 marks above the passing mark and comparatively, I didnt do well at all. Checking through, I suffered the everlasting frustration of the work of carelessness, although Im not one to go all crazy about it. Then I became angsty. LOL.

I tried to forget about it and focus more on soccer. I had my part to play since many team players couldnt make it. In a way, that makes me a reserve, even though I dont recognise myself as one. Now for the game itself. I played fairly well, I guess, and the team did quite good too. We were up against supposedly one of the powerhouses of our batch (they had good players but its just individual skill) and we held up for most part of the game. Then came the usual and they scored a last minute one. If I remember correctly, it was Ravins who kicked the ball and it deflected off an opponent's leg into the legs of one of the opponent strikers. Im trying to take note of the kind of last minute goals we conceed. Lol. Anyway, it was a good match and it really wasnt anyones fault.

I just finished up the report for the Chinese project. Yeah, tidied things up. Nigel still got to do his poster which I have no idea when or how hes gonna do it. Well, we split our tasks somewhat so its his job, but I may try to help. I tink we can achieve a commendable grade. Projects are quite managable if you try hard enough.

Tomorrow slack again. Lol, REs the most irrelevant subject to me. I suppose that opinions across the school. Im quite tired. Ran around quite a bit since this time I was defensive mid. Sleep...





Recently, I have been subconsciously slipping into the virtual world, or otherise known as dreaming. Im not sure why but it just suddens invades my mind and my mind starts wandering off into fairyland. Lol, my attention span has decreased as well and I cant seem to concentrate on whatever Im doing (unless its what I like to do of course). Yesterday I had a wonderful dream too and woke up later than usual. I tink i heard somewhere before that a dream is an expression of ones outermost desire or something liddat. Lol, I tink its debatable.

I was just tinking of all the emo poertry that I have come across since this blog was up and since I didnt really have anything to do while bathing (I dont sing), I decided to give a shot at writing one myself. Its my first, so try not to laugh even if its really, really, really bad. Lol.

I sit in the corner,
and watch the day to day happenings.
It's dark, empty and silhouetted,
the perfect refuge I desperately seek.
As the class roars in laughter,
and the teacher bears his fangs.
As the players mingle on the fields,
and raise their hands in joyous celebration.
As the hunks get the babes,
and the hot chicks get the guys.
I sit in the corner, watching silently,
wishing that someday, just someday,
everything will be alright.

Like a child's naive dream,
the wait goes on forever.
So I get up, straighten myself,
and embrace the blinding light with a newly formed resilience.

Lol, okay I need to rush abit of work now. Darn those work.





Today I was actually supposed to watch ironman with some friends but eventually didnt. We planned to watch at 12.55 since it was the only timeslot I could make it as I had trng after that. After dismissal, we rushed to Bishan GV, only to queue halfway before the tickets for the 12.55 timeslot ceased selling. It was quite pissing, lol. Then the rest of them went to check out the timings for cathay at AMK I tink but I couldnt make it, so I left. I still really wanna watch ironman! Lol, anyone want to watch? Im so despo, hahaha.

Anyway, the class soccer formation is almost finalised and ready. From the looks of it, Bhargav will probably be the permanent keeper in place of Jin Fu, who apparently really loathes that position. There are others too, like Ben Chiam. Well, with them in the picture, I tink that would be more than enough people to make the team. And you know what comes next. I guess I will no longer need to play a part in their future endeavours. Lol, essentially it means Im redundant. Does it matter? I dont know, but as long as our class wins its good enough.

Todays play (directly translated, lol) was totally unexpected. I mean, the first two other plays were quite simple and easy to understand. They were just trying to bring across some life lesson or something liddat. But the final play, Definite Love, was, in a nutshell, an "unnatural" love story, if you could call it. Simply put, its about a hidden love by a gay for this guy who he assumes hes brothers with. Sounds complicated? Its just a gay affair. Lol, as much as it was interesting, I was wondering, are we allowed to stage such plays based on such controversial themes? Not that Im against it or anything, homosexualitys quite a senstitive issue and is highly debatable. Hence, I was quite taken aback but still enjoyed the play in general.

I got YMCA interview tomorrow, so gotta go sleep now. Hope everything goes well. Nites.

posted by _Nich0las_ @ 12:18 AM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Slack. That was how the day went. I shall skip most of the boring part. For RE, our teacher mentor had to accompany some other group to some primary school, so we were left to our own devices. Since there were two periods, the first was spent at the computer lab, visiting the espn website and searching for videos of spectacular goals. I wasnt the one searching though, rather it was my groups soccer enthusiat. I bought a stress ball from popular during lunch cause I figured it would provide some entertainment later on. True enough, there wasnt much to do in the class other than bottlecap soccer. Then my friend spotted this cute little basketball ring thingy stuck to the wall. It was like the official basketball ring scaled down 10 times. Furthermore, my stress ball fit perfectly inside. So.. I started playing mini basketball. Lol, I got a picture of the ring but my phones off so maybe next time I may upload it.

Speaking of phone, mines kinda screwed. Everytime I switch it off and turn it on again, I have to reset the date and time. Lol, I havent encountered this before so I went to search for answers on the internet. The most common answer was that there was a internal time battery or little battery or something liddat in the phone on top of the phone battery itself which may be faulty. So is that the solution? I have no idea. Any phone experts out there, please tell me lol. If that whatever battery spoils, I either have to buy a new one (obviously) or join the customer service queue at the Nokia service centres. I just went there 2 days ago and I certainly dont want to go back there again. Lol, just collecting the phone takes 30-45 mins.

Yeah! Im watching ironman on friday. Lol, its been like ages since i entered the cinema. Whats the reason? Either I dont know or there are simply too many. However, I have to rush back for training once the movie ends. Lol. Then in the evening got some chinese almost-compulsory play. And the next morning is the interview for our project funding. Thats quite a load. Lol. It'll be fine.

posted by _Nich0las_ @ 12:30 AM