Lol Im really not supposed to be here. I said I would be on a break, but apparently it totally backfired. I couldnt even stand it for a day. How pathetic. Time for a change of plans. I will try to write less often and only when self-deemed "necessary' and not about trivial day to day happenings.

Another manifestation of my insecurity. I somehow long to be in the acompany of other people. I look forward to school, church, rciy, music lessons etc. Im not saying that theres nobody at home, but its just sort of different. Even going for church with a whole community of unfamiliar people makes me feel, in a way, connected. A beckoning from above? Not really. Im not very sure how to put it. It doesnt matter if im playing the passive role but simply coming together in whatever situation makes me feel.. alive? I cant think of any other word. "Filling up the void" sounds way off and exaggerating. Thats why i navigate around blogs since my msns dead most of the time. Its to stay "connected". Limited vocalubary here.

Im stuck to the rexband album. I just cant get enough of it. Lol, I want to share it with the world! o.O, overdid it again. I realised that msn is really effective when I uploaded the entire album into my sharing folders for John. The whole album sent just like that without burning. Lol, so easy.