This weeks been rather confusing and provocative. After being confronted with the dilemma mentioned earlier, a lot of my activities have been disrupted. Im still contemplating and whenever I try to do something, it just comes smack right back into my face (or mind). Pretty weird, its just a small camp. But somehow, I feel the urge to go for it... Besides, skipping school during the last weeks not a good idea cause it will just snowball into the holidays, which is not at all desirable. So im going to see if something can be done, like I can cancel the second op.

Now another something to think about. You always hear about psychologists saying that one has to be bold and daring in order to increase his or her social network. But, even if one adopts that attitude, will it work? The problem that I personally have come across is that people already hang out in their small packs of friends or social groups. Thus, even with the right attitude, wouldnt it be difficult to "intrude" into this tightly knit social group, no matter how small it may be? To a certain extent, you might even be "intimidated" by such a situation and be unable to blend in. This, Im just saying, is like an invasion or intrusion into a unknown territory and that psychological barrier will always exist. At least thats how its been for me so far.

I realise that the past few posts have been hovering around this topic. I think I should stop. Its getting overboard. Anyway, its the end of the week and usually something new will come up. O, one more thing, I realised that I would be spending my birthday with an open wound! LOL, as lame as usual.