Where do i begin? Hmm, i've been feeling rather down recently cause during the hols, it somehow dawned upon mi that i have not been communicating well with friends. It seemed onli ytd that i was chatting on msn with friends, bois and gals alike. Den suddenly, my contacts all just cut off from mi. This was all my own undoing.

The last Dec hols, my friends in my previous class introduced mi to Dota, a game popular yet one which i was weary of since i was afraid of getting addicted. Eventually, we still went lan-ing, and i got hooked (to the game). Thereafter, i stopped logging on to msn but instead started dota-ing 24/7 . Months passed, the holidaes were over, yet i continued with my addiction. That was an action i regret till today.

Now, I sincerely feel left out and empty. It's like everyone's shut off to mi and no one remembers mi. You might sae i'm getting emo-ish or angsty, but i realli feel a need to express my feelings. This is partially why i created this blog at this point of time, owing to my low emotional state.

I hope, and ernestly do, that all my previous affiliations would come back to mi. Not immediately, but gradually. Persoanlly, I'm not veh adept at expressing myself or communicating wif others, but i will try, from now on, to mix around more. To my ex-school schmates, if you are reading, if i have in anyway offended you, be it verbally or my attitude, i'm sorry. I din do it intentionally. I dunno why, but suddenly i feel that all of you are shunning mi. Maybe i'm being over-sensitive or over-reacting, but like i said, i'm just expressing my thoughts and feelings.

So on msn or anywhere, feel free to tok to mi. I dunno why, but it's veh hard for mi to take the initiative. I would be most glad if you were just to start the conversation. As i said, my communicaiton skills are not veh effective, so please bear wif mi if i bore you to some extent. I try.

eh, I sound damm despo rite? I dunno, but I just realli want to sae tis. Letting it out feels so much better.